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[29 Sep 2008|02:45pm] |
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Ok so add me on the journal HunterMorton it will be great!
"I know you have a fucked up life
Growing up in a stupid town
Your mother was a mixed up chick
And your father he just fucked around
A little too much for his own good
I'd kill the bastard if I could
I'd kill all the boys with their fucked up noise
And all the bullshit they seem to enjoy
The kids at school
Called you slut
Nothing but
And what the fuck are they into
The stupid fools
Losers assholes suck all the luck
Out of the world the world for you
If I can get it back to you I will
And kick their asses all over town
All over town I'll turn it over
And I don't even know you that well
What the hell summer spell
What's it like
Going out
And no one knows what you're about
Abused and used and cut in two
By hollow man with nothing to do
Laugh all the time try to get high
And try to hide behind the lie
They fucked your head up
That's for sure
Your heart is ripped now wrapped in fur
But you know that sex is pretty insane
And magic seems to kill the pain
And the things that go on inside your brain
Makes you seem to think that you're to blame
Don't think about it
Throw it out
Love 'em all and say it loud
Fight the scumbags that slap you around
Scream your crazy lost and found
We don't have to tell you what is right
We have all the faith that it was not right
Sadness is and sadness was
And sadness will always be because
Comfort comes around from the strangest of men
I got no time for sad songs baby
Don't need you to say I'm crazy
Stick your tongue and you look at me
And I will bite it off you see
Push you down onto your knees
Do you laugh away the flees
You're not the only one in town
But you're the only one that's got me down
Psychic hearts go out to you
A psychic heart go round to you
My prayer to you
Is that you do all the things you set out to do
And live your life the way you love
But will you remember one thing for me
I will always love you
I will always love you"
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| oh and by the way |
[29 Sep 2008|12:20pm] |
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super falling star |
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There is only one way to eat 16 servings of brownies,
You need about six servings of cereal. 20 servings of blue agave nectar, 4 servings of wheat pasta, and 20 servings of reeses peanut butter chips.
Fuck im like a bottomless pit. This is what pot does to me.
Smoke on, Snack on!
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| well well well |
[29 Sep 2008|12:11pm] |
Ive got the light in the window, you've got the alcohol.
Im on the here and now, your on the year before.
I see the moon in Texas, you see a bar thats dark...
Is it that time already? Shoot, Time for Macy's.
lol, Ken Jones is the reigning prince in his step father's kingdom.
Is he satisfied with his heir? Or is more apt to leave is fortune to the heiress Kelly?
Find out in the Amazing ever changing life of KENNETH JONES!
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| psysnack |
[11 Sep 2008|08:13pm] |
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stereolab -household names / Daft punk - Harder better faster stronger |
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Well I finally connected with a decent graffiti artist up here.
Who is a surprisingly really interesting person who listens to a shit load of good music.
I was partying in NY and I figured something out about this girl I've been liking.
She likes this guy who likes to play open mics.
Fortunately Anna informed me he is a complete prick or something like that.
My mom and Matt Sedgewick told me I should write a book called HOW TO BE A PRICK FOR DUMMIES.
because it seems like girls will only like you if your a prick to them.
But its not true. It just fucks with there head and now I can see this guy is fucking with her head.
Trying to convince her to come back to his apartment and what not.
He is probably a total fucking tool. I am in no position to feel down on myself right now there is too much too risk.
Hanging out with psychedelic trance friends is a lot of fun.
Playing guitar at the mall and drinking coffee is fun too, even if I am alone.
For once I think I am not crazy at all and actually I feel like I have a lot of weight on my shoulders.
I put that weight there though and I am gonna try and go all the way.
Than Ill go crazy again and everything will be ok.
This could take some time, Hmmm.
I should probably go dancing in the woods on saturday with psytrance friends.
I might starve another day and not go to the bank. But Ive saved like 130 dollars this month.
Tomorrow I should have about 180 dollars.
smoking less pot helps.
Me and Leigh Ann have been talking on the phone a lot and being supportive friends.
I just cant bring myself to be a prick to Karen though because I am not that guy that does that and it is not like we have known each other for years but I am not going to call her and see how she feels about that. I now know she is really hung up on this guy who probably has a slightly more pointy complexion than me. All that I can do is smile and wear my lsd face though and I wont feel so much like a fumbling Neanderthal. I am not. Work is going good except treading through the snow this winter is gonna fucking bite.
Listening to Daft Punk... On adderal... at work.
Thats the shit baby.
I feel like a druggy dork but it is Ok. I can accept these sort of things.
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[05 Sep 2008|11:14am] |
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Haunted Graffiti - S/Y Eric's trip |
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hmm.. Hmmm.. Hmm.. hmm.. Hmm..
Im actually more sober as 21 than I was as a younger person.
All Tomorrow's parties should be a whole lotta fun. The night before I might see the Dandy Warhols Its friday and I am off to Macy's for a fun filled friday. No racks to deliver tonight. No sir.
Last night I had a dream that aliens were abducting everyone in town. It was fucking weird. They were lying to them. They had landed, it was two tall ladies. One was wearing a black and white dress. She was overweight and black. The other lady was Tall and had bright red hair. There was a long ass line of people backed up and I told them I was not going to board the ship.
The ladies told me that the people were actually getting killed. I assumed that from the beginning. My friend John was at the back of the line and I convinced him not to go and than someone else, maybe Eric my roommate was not going to board either.
I mean:
They thought they were off to board the mother ship
But they were really walking into a giant wood chipper
I instantly saw through the bullshit
And the alien women let me coexist among them.
It was not so stellar as it was Earthbound.
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| hmm |
[31 Aug 2008|06:24pm] |
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So I have realized something I care and awful lot about Karen. I know she is probably fine but there is a mature way to do something. I feel like she might be letting herself go in my absence and that is ultimately why I told her how beautiful I thought she was. I know that I am in no position to be in a relationship right now. BLAH
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| I'll keep my fingers crossed. |
[28 Aug 2008|05:19am] |
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So I really like this girl and we seem to be hitting it off really well.
I think she is amazing though and If there is something I want to take it all very slow or very fast, whichever.
I mean we have some things in common. I know why I am all crazy about her and that would be very revealing for me.
The truth is she reminds me an awful lot of my own mother. Some people might think thats weird but I have had this conversation before and we came to the conclusion that it is quite beautiful to be able to love someone just as much as you love your own mother. My mom's stupid fucking boyfriend Donny always used to tell me I had an Oedipus complex. Fuck Him, I am not living my life according to his thoughts or anyone else's. I am free, I feel free. I make things happen. I sound a little righteous and often as of lately I find myself in the same character as Fyodor Pavlovich.
I don't know what I am thinking and I don't know what is going to happen but I decided to tell her the way I feel in the most honest way I could.
I would really like to date someone my own age, its true, its horribly true and at times it can be menacing.
Not a day goes by when I don't find a new adventure.
I met this girl named Lauren who seems really neat. She is 25 and about to get her Master's in psychology and lives in town. She is really pretty too. She came by my work looking for me today. She is cool because she only smokes hand rolled cigarettes and she comes over buys pot smokes it with me and lets me teach her stuff on guitar. I can't help but think about this sort of thing. I would like to hook up with her maybe. I would love to hook her up with a good guy. She's just neat.
Now I have my attention diverted from Karen again which makes me realize how young I still am.
"Once I get started you can't hold me down
Once I get going then I go to town
I'm not like everybody else"
I have never really given my close friends that much insight into my personal life because its always been very taboo in a way. Liz, Jessica, Francesca, Leigh Ann. Karen was telling me a relationship should be kept special between the two people. It should. She is in fact the one that told me all kinds of crazy things to get me to like her. Telling me we should wait to hook up because it will be worth it if it is special. I mean I could keep going and going and going and going and going. Its not worth it though Im gonna get some sleep. I guarantee anyone I talk to about this would just say chill out man your over thinking things again. I am though, It seems to be what I do. I have created something beautiful though. I expressed myself for other people. Life is not always good but if its beautiful tonight than Ill let it be. If I am happy than I am not pissed off. I feel like I might be doing something right now. So Im gonna run with it.
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[11 Aug 2008|11:58pm] |
Well more lyrics for an update. I think I might be doing deco. at seed gallery this weekend. Im reading the brothers karamazov. MEOW!
You're into Japanese fast food
And I drop you off with your Japanese lover
And you go to the beach all day
You're so pretty when you're unfaithful to me
You're so pretty when you're unfaithful to me
You're looking like
You've got some sun
Your blistered lips
Have got a kiss
The days are lit like everyone
Uh-oh, Uh-oh, Uh-oh, Uh-oh
Your bones got a little machine
You're the bone machine
I was talking to preachy-preach about kissy-kiss
Buy me a soda
Buy me a soda and try to molest me in the parking lot
Eh, eh
I make you break
You make me hard
Your Irish skin
Looks Mexican
Our love is rice and beans and horse's lard
Your bones got a little machine
You're the bone machine
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| In a jar |
[04 Aug 2008|04:06pm] |
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dinosaur jr - in a jar |
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I went to macys after staying up all night with Kranky. Very memorable.
I watched total recall and started crying when i looked at the cats in petsmart.
What the hell am I on. hehehe
I'll be grazing by your window
Please come pat me on the head
I just want to find out what you're nice to me for
When I look up, don't think I don't know
about all the scabs you dread
It's hard to stomach the gore
I know you don't have the patience
To peel them off no more
In a jar where you believe
All I could do was lick your hand
In a jar the scars are plain to see
I hope somehow you'll know I understand
I'll be grazing by your window
Please come pat me on the head
I just want to find out what you're nice to me for
Then you smile and decide to take me in
'Cause I look you by your bed
But I can feel it just a little more
I'll watch you fall apart, babe you know it
You know I'm young and stuff, babe don't blow it
Just unscrew the top, yeah
Pick me up now just can't stop
In a jar where you believe
All I could do was lick your hand
In a jar where scars are plain to see
I hope somehow you'll know I understand
Scabs collect beneath your bureau
From the knife wounds you got
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| oh god im sick in the head |
[28 Jul 2008|03:14pm] |
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Half Japanese - Secret |
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But the nostalgia is killing me and it feels fucking beautiful so heres some lyrics about someone I cant stand.
Someone sent you roses, Karen.
Yeah that's twice this week isn't Karen?
You're a lucky girl Karen.
To have someone who cares about you so much Karen.
Karen has a secret admirer. And I have a secret.
Karen has a secret admirer. And I have a secret too.
And my secret is you.
What kind of candy do you like?
And what is your dress size Karen?
Why do I want to know?
Well I guess I am just curious Karen.
Karen has a secret admirer. And I have a secret.
Karen has a secret admirer. And I have a secret too.
And my secret is you.
I remember one time ago we were walking down the beach at night.
We were both looking at the stars up above.
And you said hey look up there and I looked up there.
And you said well that star must be there as proof of our love.
Karen has a secret admirer. And I have a secret.
Karen has a secret admirer. And I have a secret too.
And my secret is. My secret is. My secret is you.
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| long time no update |
[13 Jul 2008|04:26pm] |
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Sleater Kinney |
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I guess my parents never got a long so I never really knew what a healthy relationship was supposed to look like. I feel like my friends our my parents. All my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends so I might as well just call them mom and dad. I don't feel much like writing about working at Macy's or that girl I met Karen. Hopefully Ill be in Brooklyn later since I my buddy Anna got kicked out of the Breeders last night for underage drinking. Im thinking about getting my passport, playing guitar and reading a book.
"And Im thinkin' bout Eleanor Bron,
And Im thinkin' bout a lucky charm"
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| my new icq number |
[13 Apr 2008|01:19am] |
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methlab - whisper pitch |
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398854144.
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| hmm |
[02 Apr 2008|07:14pm] |
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Gabe and Mark took off to California today.
I dont know when they will be back.
I am looking for a job and selling things on craig's list.
There are some really cheap flights on spirit air for like 9 bucks eachway. That would be cool if someone came and visited me.
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[29 Mar 2008|02:20am] |
I moved into a new place, its kind of cool. I finally got a gypsy but I sold it for about 100 dollars.
I am going to the liberty science center tomorrow, nothing is gonna stop me. It should be fun.
There was a crazy party last night and Anna chucked a bottle at Gabe at 7 a.m. and hit him in the lip.
I don't think that I like things like that, although I was in the room I turned my head.
I watched TV for a long time today. In some ways it is cool because it stimulated my mind in this slow sort of fashion. I think it felt good to relax because I only slept for 3 or 4 hours. Last night was like what the fuck. The black guy that lived up stairs punched out Eric's window. But on accident I think because he knocked on it too hard.
I've been doing a lot of soloing and playing guitar. The playing guitar part I like but the soloing is monotonous.
Lately there has been some good jam sessions going on with me Eric and Chordo.
I hung out with Josh Wildhorn last night for the first time in a long time. It was cool to chill with him.
There were all these nerds playing supersmash bros. and I beat there asses with pikachu. In the next game I chose mr game and watched and lost with his faulty ass. Mr game and watch sucks.
I am definetly gonna crash.
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| MM |
[24 Mar 2008|10:02pm] |
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burning in the color
the heat is red and blue
the flame is cutting my shoulder
and burns through my hands
I feel its weight above my head
crushing my bones to pieces
it tearing me off the earth
and peeling my process
I cant seem to move
bloody hands on my face
bloody face on my hands
carnal is my pain
improve improvised I'm pro
So I can think, allow me to think.
I have quit my job. My boss is a tubby tub tub.
I feel emotional. Its good though, Its in your face, and yes.
I am definetly talking my self into a circle.
I don't know what I am transcending. Or translating.
It has often been beyond the description of words in my vocabulary.
But its not.
It is Layers of geometry piled on one another when I close my eyes.
It is multi-colored and beautiful.
I have not lost my mind. I am just in a crazy coffee mood from this coffee I drank.
First I got the sweats. Than I felt a shit coming on. I than dropped the kids off at the pool.
The caffeine threw me into a psychedelic quandary in hot pursuit of some carbs. To fill the void, Or take place of the mass that just got chased down my intestinal track.
I have a definition
mi·lieu [mil-yoo, meel-; Fr. mee-lyɶ]
surroundings, esp. of a social or cultural nature: a snobbish milieu.
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[18 Mar 2008|09:52pm] |
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do you know squarepusher |
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tonight ive just completley lost my mind. Im hanging out with Eric and Beliza in new york.
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[13 Mar 2008|12:01pm] |
Yesterday was wonderful.
I woke up at a Hotel with Ian, Danni, Sarah, Fran, and Emma. It was a Jersey Reunion for Florida folks.
Than I went and bought MY FIRST REAL MOOG SYNTH. Than I went to work 30 minuits late and noone noticed. Than after work I chilled with Matt Bailey and Anna and Bailey was the look out while I did graffiti.
FRIDAY PAINTING NUDE EXOTIC PORNSTARS
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| Tonight |
[06 Mar 2008|03:18am] |
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Stereolab - with friends like these |
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It is 3 19 and I have been laughing a lot. I guess I am stoned but I should really get ready for bed. My cerebellum is pulsating. Tonight I chilled with Dan, His little Brother, and they had a volcano vaporizer. Matt came over with Anna from Sparta. Melissa and Brett were present with me and Sharon and some random kid from myspace she invited over. Hopefully Cafe Shaye's will work me today. On the 14th I am going to a painting the nude party thing. I have never been before. Sarah might come too. She will be in New York this week from Florida and that means I will get to go to NYU and hang with her Fran and Emma. My funds are good today but we will see what tomorrow has too offer. All my friends are at Langerado. I wanted to fucking see Built to Spill so bad. I started listening to stereolab more. Will was right, I like them.
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[29 Feb 2008|07:20pm] |
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So I am definetly going to buy a synth within the next month. I am not sure what I want to get as far as the low end synths go. I am pretty sure Its going to be a KORG. I would love to find a great deal on something better though. Today I hung out with Matt's dad and we listened to radio programs. There is a free form music marathon going on on one particular station. I listened to Gary Nole today too. I went into work for 2 hours. They said they did not need me today. My grandma sent me a lot of sweet food in the mail. My mom told me today she has 100 dollars for me to get a new guitar with. I have guitars and I planned on getting a synth so it all works out. I have been playing a green, black, and blue deck. Matt and his dad are brutal at times. I cant tell if they are arguing or joking the way they raise there voices at each other. I suspect they do things to piss the other off. "STOP IT MATTHEW"
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